Monstrous Will

THIS IS A QUESTION which every person whose consciousness is awakened a little has asked himself atleast once in his life
......what is this monstrous force in which one takes part without wanting to,without understanding it ?Why are we born,if it is only to die?Why all this effort for development progress,the flowering of the faculties,if it is to come to a diminution ending in decline and disintegration?
...in persons who are sensitive,it produces horror;in others indignation.
...some feel a revolt in them,others less strong feel despair and always this question arises:"if there is conscious WILL behind that, this WILL seems to be monstrous.